Overwhelmed.

Today I said, slightly without thinking: "Being overwhelmed seems to be the story of my life."

Not good.

I oscillate from overwhelmed to peace to overwhelmed. Except the peace lasts only a moment. It comes when I know that I actually am in the place that God wants me right now.

Then the moment is gone. And I'm overwhelmed again.

Worship isn't so overwhelming.
But BCM is.
And DESMA is.
And classes are.
And then I go back to thinking, Am I really where God wants me?

It's hard when I don't feel like the people around me support me. It makes me feel

overwhelmed.

(4/20/08)