[an entry from a journal of old]

12/14/05

The day Christiana didn't have any more pain. I was saying I didn't know why but I do. She was the ultimate act of obedience as she agreed to go through pain so that you could reveal yourself to other people. It's hard to think that she'll never come back, but my prayer is that you always keep her with me and remind me of the joyful things you've given me tonight. I don't want to ever forget how she's obeyed you. I promise to always give you the glory for everything and always thank you everytime you do something through her. I always want to remember how happy she is and how peaceful she is next to you. I want to handle this the right way and I want to help Serena handle this the right way. I love her. Christiana's my inspiration. I only hope that I can be an inspiration like she is.