Excited for Liiiiife [slash leadership]

Recent epiphanies:

-My conclusion from reading Check All That Apply... God made me multiracial for a reason. God made me. Multiracial. For a reason. God doesn't make mistakes, and was particularly intentional by making me multiracial. When racial rec happens, it moves me to the depths of my soul. Part of the puzzle pieces of my heart, that are shattered because of racial divide, come together. Something inside me becomes whole. I have a passion for racial rec. But it's more than a passion. Because that word doesn't seem to capture it. I feel like God has given me a glimpse of how He feels about racial reconciliation. And it's incredible. I'm excited to live the rest of my life as a multiracial person. Excited to see what God has for me in my life. Even this year. Because He decided to give me a glimpse of what my life could look like if I embraced my identity as he made me -- multiracial. And I was blown away. Moved my soul again. And I caught a glimpse of what it means to be whole.

-By making me multiracial, God has put me in a unique place to pursue and see true diversity in the places He puts me. By calling me to lead worship and lead BCM as a multiracial person, He has put me in a unique position to pursue and see true diversity in BCF. Something that I didn't realize [and still might not] that I longed for so much. Before it was about numbers. About having a certain percentage or whatever of BCF be minorities. Then it became a focus on their individual relationship with God. Now it's a focus on their relationship with God, and with each other. A desire that's too strong to describe in a blog. Or with words.-And as for the ministry of BCM, "The Kingdom of God is like a grain of mustard seed, which, when sown upon the ground, is the smallest of all the seeds on earth; yet when it is sown it grows up and becomes the greatest of all shrubs..." [Mark] BCM has incredible potential for growth. I need to begin to dream.

I need to begin to see BCM through God's eyes. With His boundless vision. I need to begin to dream.

(7/25/08)