God, help me to rest in the fact that You are growing me as I pursue You instead of stressing over knowing every way that You're working through me. I want You to use me, and I want to be okay with not knowing exactly how. Give me peace in knowing that You are using me, and God, let that be enough. Help me not obsess over making every conversation spiritual, God. Help me just focus on not passing up Your opportunities. Thank You. Amen.

Right now I'm realizing that I would be disappointed if I didn't make an incredible impact here in Spain. Like if someone doesn't discover or rediscover Jesus while I'm here, then I've failed. I would be disappointed in myself, sure that I hadn't done what God wanted me to. But I am not dictating what God has for me. That's not my job. God is pleased when I seek Him, listen to what He wants me to, and obey. That's all I have to do. God, take away what I expect and replace it with peace. I just want to have you calling the shots. Amen.



Evelyn,
I want you to enjoy yourself. Be in the moment. Don't always be thinking about what you need to do, what conversations to have, etc. for the Kingdom. Be attentive, and I will speak to yu. Don't jump the gun. When you think of Me, praise Me. Don't always think of what you have to do. Be Mary, not Martha.
-God



Oh, and God, one more thing. Please help me get to the place where I can accept that You love me as I am. That You love me even if I do nothing. Thanks. Amen.

(7/9/08)