A Burden

How do I not feel like a burden?
Is it my fault that she died on a day during finals week?
Is it my fault that my professor won’t let me take the final early?
God, You made this week like this for a reason
You made me need healing
I am NOT self-sufficient
I need You
I need people
I need healing
I have needs
But why do I feel like a burden then?
Satan’s way of whispering that
I am nothing?
That I don’t matter?
But I do matter.
Let the burden be lifted
I am NOT a burden
They don’t mean to make me feel like that
They want to help me
I need help
Asking for help is really hard
But I’ll do it
Even though I feel like a burden.

(12/5/07)