This Feeling

What is this feeling?
Torn between two extremes
What I want and
What God wants.
Well, obviously I want what God wants.
Isn’t it that easy?
The stress of school, ministry, work
Overwhelm
I’m pretty drained from being
Out of my comfort zone
What is God preparing me for?
I await the days when I can relax
When my head and heart stop hurting
Deep down I know it’s worth it
This whole “living for God” thing
This weekend is Fall Con
And among all of the things I have next week
Beyond all of the tests, worship and retail events
I want You to meet me there
Because I want what You want
Because I know it’s worth it.
One of these days it’ll get easier
I guess today’s just not that day.

(10/25/07)